Blessings

"Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise"

Blessings by: Laura Story

In the past year I have experienced rain drops. through my dads accident, daily trials, the loss of a life, financial struggle, and fear. The list sounds bad. Maybe not as bad as yours but for me it has been the most difficult year of my life. 

But those raindrops in my life, those tears, those sleepless nights have brought more blessing than ever. My dependence on the Lord is stronger, my ability to identify with His suffering is more real and my compassion for the hurting is more present than ever. 

Last night I was so overwhelmed. Feelings sneak up on you and they always feel so unwanted but sometimes they are necessary. I tell myself more than ever that it is okay to cry. I sat there and I told Britt and I don't know if I can handle anymore. I feel like I am drowning and I finally reach the top for air and something else comes and pulls me under. I felt defeated and cast down. 

This morning I woke up and I was so lovingly reminded by my heavenly father that "His Mercy is new ever morning." Lamentations 3:22-24 Hallelujah! 

I was reminded that His blessing come through raindrops sometimes. I was reminded that I am being formed more into His image. Although the process may be painful the pain will end when I leave this world and the result will be worth every raindrop.